Inside of the Mask

Outside

During the Personal Wholeness weekend one of our assignments was to make a mask.  Each participant was given a blank white mask and we were to cover both sides with words that describe us. 

  The first side was to represent what others see in us.  The second was to represent what we know about ourselves but others don't see because we keep it hidden purposely or unintentionally.  There is a whole other section that is what God knows about us but that we are oblivious too.  I am fairly certain that other section is God's grace at work!  If I had to see all of me all at once I may just explode.

This was by far my favorite assignment I think because I love to color, cut, and glue with the rest of the preschoolers!  I am a very visual person.  I think in picture and in dance.  And I like treasure hunts, which this assignment definitely was - you try to find yourself in an Architectural Digest.

My favorite find was a quote by a designer talking about a kitchen, I think.  "Sometimes to clarify a vision

 that has gotten muddled, you have to take a part away."

Inside

That quote went on the inside.  Mostly because I feel like people think I have it all together but really I don't.  God simultaneously holds me together and chips away at the muddled parts that need to be removed so that His Glory is more pure in me.

I also realized that when all is said and done I am far less complicated on the inside.  I strive to follow the "Singular Voice" who is making me "whole".  That plant on the side there, that is a weed.  It is what God is slowly pulling up by the roots.  

You see, I believe in Jesus and so He dwells in me.  All of His fullness in me.  It is mind boggling if my puny human mind could even comprehend what that truly means.  This is how I see it.  God's whole vision for me is here - inside - because of His Son's presence in my life.  He just has to take away the extra parts that don't fit like a sculptor freeing a master work from the stone.